Monday morning, I looked out into the backyard, and I had a daffodil.
1 daffodil blooming!
When we were building this house, we thought we'd be in by the holidays of 2010, so in the fall, while the house was still being built, the boys and I planted a couple dozen daffodils. Only, then they mowed the dirt, rearranged things, it was another 6 months before we moved in. So I didn't get 24 daffodils. And I haven't been up to tending to it. This year, I only got 1.
But it was a pretty one.
But it made me decide, that this fall, I'm planting more. I didn't use to enjoy yellow flowers, but as I get older, I love them. They ARE spring to me. So when Costco has it's annual bags o' bulbs on sale, I'm going to buy some yellow daffodils and some tulips.
In the meantime, I'm going to get healthy enough to Plant them come fall. My friend S* started a group, to get refocused on our health - you know, diet and exercise. I wish there was an easier way, but it's a fact, Diet + Exercise = Results. So that's what I need to do. I hate hate Hate the diet part. Many in the group are beginning to track calories on an app called MyFitnessPal.com. So I checked it out, got started. It's got a great food list, but the exercise is a bit...meh. It's like facebook for exercise, it posts updates and your friends can encourage you. I'm not sure what I think about it yet. But I do know that I'm tired of not moving my body, of not being Able to move my body. Time to lose the weight. I may not be able to do much exercise but walk for a while, but I will try.
Monday, I tracked my calories, just as an fyi. I wasn't sure how much I was eating a day. Answer: a lot! Well, I decided to go for a walk, but since Chris had karate, I thought I'd walk the parking lot while he was in there. That would have worked, except 15 minutes in, it started to rain. :( But 15 minutes is more exercise than last week. And more than the week before that. It recommended for 1 pound of loss a week that I do 1700 calories. I think I can do that. It doesn't sound to terribly drastic. For me, I want to get back into the routine of exercise before I really get drastic on the diet. Of course, ideally, I'd like to lose more than 1 pound a week. But I don't want to be too drastic. I want it stay off, want to redo my lifestyle to that which I had before I got sick, when I could like, move my body and stuff.
And I'm going to have to walk before I run. Literally.
So, we get 1 flower at a time, or lose 1 pound at a time, it's coming 1 by 1. And I'm going to take that 1 as a step, and build upon it. Even if it is only 1, it's a beautiful 1. I will be happy with each simple 1 pound I lose, just as I am for the beauty of this one simple daffodil. I am grateful.